It's Here

I sit and read. The sun drenching me in warmth like a hot shower that you desperately needed. 

The bluebird pokes its little head into its house and pops into the small hole of a doorway. I smile.

 Spring isn't coming...it's here. 

I almost don't know what to write. How can I put it into words, what God has done for me? 

It was so bad, and then so suddenly God made it better. I told my friend that I was sorry for the way I was before, how I pushed her and everyone else away. Sure that they were judging me and could never understand. And she replied that she only noticed it when it got really bad, then just as suddenly,I was ok again. It made me realize the battle that we were fighting was real. Just when I felt I couldn't hold my breath for one more second, satan pressing in on every side, God whispered "Nan". And I saw. And I ran. For once there was no shame in running! 

Me and my sister Claire, who also has hypoglycemia

It's good to be back!

When the storm subsided, I realized I had forgotten what the light looked like. And it was so good, so beautiful, that I was scared I would go back into the dark. So I prayed. 

 I heard a lecture, and the speaker said: "God will never let you go back to where you were, if you're surrendered to him." 

I haven't looked back since. 

And I realize that freedom isn't coming...it's here.

Cate and me being cool as usual.

I'm alive

Life has changed so much in so little time. One day after months and months of prayer, struggle, tears, stomach aches and lengthy conversations with mom, God gave me a burning desire to eat. And so I did, and instead of guilt I felt joy! Each day gets easier and easier and I am reminded God is faithful. I could go on and on...but I think this song describes it all...

The road

I am proud to report that Nan has gained 4 pounds in about two weeks!  This LBS road that Nan and I have been  traveling for sometime has been bumpy, twisty and quite often spiraling downhill. Today the road looks less dangerous.  There are helpful guardrails in place to guide her on this journey.  She has what it takes to make it, yet the road is long .  A very long road ahead of us.  But it is a journey we are willing to take because so much ground has already been covered and conquered.  It is all adventure ahead!  I'm sure it won't all be smooth sailing, but I am encouraged, for Nan has the desire to gain weight. She wants be able to run competitively again, but mostly to feel good.  God is faithful and we have learned a lot.  My prayer is for continued guidance for the days ahead.  With Spring around the corner, I am sure there are many sunny days ahead of us.

Sisters!  Nan and Cate when they are about  8 and 9 years old.
Best of friends.

Cate and Nan, 2013, still best of friends.  They have always been there for
each other, encouraging and praying for one another.

Please don't tell me it's mid February...

I have been slack.  The days have gone by and I haven't taken the time to update our journey.  It's been an up and down LBS journey.  Right now we are in a good place, I think.  Nan is determined to gain 10 lbs, then 10 more and who knows after that:)  She still battles thoughts that make her not want to eat and a tummy that doesn't hold a lot of food.  This is literally a stretching time for her and for me.  For her as she learns to continue to overcome the negative thoughts about food and to endure the stretching pain of feeling full after eating.  For me to continue to encourage her and to not become discourage when a setback occurs or  when I think she is not progressing fast enough.  Thankfully we have a Savior to go to and he gives both of us the courage and strength to continue.
Today is Ash Wednesday, the first day of Lent.  Our family continues the traditional custom of giving up something in order to remember all that Christ suffered for us when he gave his life for our sins.  This year I am giving up my laziness about running in the winter and will run at least five times a week.  Today I ran in the drizzle, fog and cold, none of which I like.  But as I ran, I praised God and prayed for people I know who are suffering.  I recalled all that Christ has done for me  and my run was over before I knew it.  I liked that closeness with God.  I look forward to tomorrow's run.

Our really fun family trip to DC in December.

Cheers, Nancy

Climbing Mountains

We know it is Christmas time and should do a post about Christmas, but We've been saving this post for a looong time now and  finally have found time to write it all out.
Each daughter, on their 16th birthday got to go on a surprise trip to somewhere new and interesting.
I, Nan turned 16 in September...so I got to do something I have always wanted to do. Hike part of the Appalachian trail!!   So on October 21st mom, dad, and me drove 2 hours into the mountains...

Birds migrating on the way to the mountains

There was a swing at the cute little cabin we stayed in

And a river across the gravel road

It was late when we finally got to the cabin so we cooked up some dinner.
Sauteed veggies, shrimp, sweet potato fries and salmon with sauteed onions.

The next day we set out to hike the Appalachian trail... 

And we met a lady hiking with her pet goat...

So cool to be there!!

On the trail.

It was a beautiful day 

Eating a gluten free sandwich for lunch

Dad was tired

We loved hiking carvers gap, the day was beautiful and the hike was the perfect challenge!

That night we cooked apple compotes in the fire and potatoes for dinner outside our cabin.

We also roasted organic chicken apple brats 

And mom and I goofed off...

SUCH a fun day! Loved every minute of it! 

The next day we made a big breakfast and drove to climb Mt. Mitchell, Highest peak east of the Mississippi River.
This was the view as we rode in the car.

It was definitely a difficult climb, we got lost once...but so fun!  

Proud we made it to the top!

Eating some lunch at a picnic table on top of the mountain.

And then the descent back down...

 I loved both mountains we climbed so much! Each day was just as fun as the last. After hiking, we piled into the car and stopped at a little country shop to buy fresh apples and other vegetables. Then we drove all the way home.
It was an incredible experience and one I will always remember! I was homesick for the mountains weeks afterwards!  For the sound of the river laughing outside my window in the morning, the smell of pine and fresh cool air, cooking over a fire, the way you stand on top of a mountain and feel nothing else really matters  and for getting to know my parents a lot better! Yes I loved turning 16!

Promise of sunshine

It is a sunny day today and even better it's been a week of no LBS for Nan.  I am encourage and excited!  She has recognized her symptoms and has been willing to stop it  before it sets in.  I am so proud of her and we both give the glory to God, who has strengthened her resolve to get well.

We've had a fun December so far.  We watched the Greensboro parade with Mary, Cate and Gabe.  Here Nan, Mary and I are watching it from a parking deck. 

Merry Christmas!

Walking in December

"In December keep yourself warm and sleep."

Lilly

Life has been good. Mom is finally back from her looooong stay in Atlanta (only 1 week). And everything's back to normal, except for a certain four-legged furry thing named Lilly. I'm watching her while her owners are out of town for a week. She is the sweetest thing, she follows me everywhere!

Pretty sure Lilly did this...

Since not running I have been walking a lot lately, especially with these crazy dogs! I never knew how peaceful and restoring walks can be. They clear my mind and bring fresh air to my lungs. Not like running, I can actually gaze at the beauty around me and take it all in.
This December I will be sleeping a lot, but also walking, sipping rich hot chocolate and trying with all I have to keep warm. My dad mercilessly keeps the heat on 70 and I would much rather have it on 90. But oh well my two pairs of socks, long sleeve shirt, sweat shirt and pants will have to do...

Clyde looking thrilled about our daily walk...

Red noses and Chili

                                    "When all aloud the wind doth blow,
                                     And coughing drowns the parson's saw,
                                     And birds sit brooding in the snow,
                                    And Marion's nose looks red and raw."
                                                           ~Shakespere

I do not particularly love winter because it's cold and grey...and cold and grey, but I absolutely love December! December really shouldn't even be counted as winter, because everything is bright and happy and no matter what everyone looks jolly and glad. Christmas does have a lot to do with that of course.

Picture by hartandsoulphotography.blogspot.com

Like mom said so much has happened in so little time. I'm currently trying desperately to gain weight, not just to look better, but for health reasons. Me being underweight surprisingly affects my low-blood sugar a lot. So for now, much to my despair, I'm not running, or biking or swimming or anything, just walking and doing yoga until I gain weight and my blood sugar becomes steady. I love to run and I hate watching my sister Cate take off without me, but I know it's for the best.
It's hard to ignore or pretend nothing happened the past few months. My blood sugar going up and down. But I'm on a new path, and mom is too. We're in this together.



Mom is out of town to help with my sister and her new baby so I got to make dinner for Cate, dad and me.
I thought it was a good night for chili. Mom makes this for us often. It will always be a favorite.

Nonstop, No-Chop Chili  By Cookinglight

3/4 pound ground round 

cooking spray

2 cups water

1 1/2 cups frozen whole-kernel corn (I omitted)

1 cup bottled salsa

2 tablespoons chili powder

1 tablespoon sugar (I did 1/2 teaspoon of stevia)

2 1/2 teaspoons ground cumin

1 1/2 teaspoons dried oregano

1/4 teaspoon salt

1 (16-ounce) can chili beans, undrained

1 (14.5 ounce) can no-salt-added diced tomatoes, undrained


1. Cook ground round in a large Dutch oven coated with cooking spray over medium-high heat 4 minutes or until beef is browned, stirring occasionally. Stir in water and remaining ingredients; bring to a boil. Reduce heat; simmer 25 minutes, stirring occasionally.
Yield: 6 servings

Time goes by...

Yes so much time has gone by since our last post.  I have found it difficult to find the right moment to sit down at the computer and put this on our blog.  I have composed several posts in my head, but they haven't found their way here yet.

One reason is very exciting to us!  We were in Atlanta awaiting the birth of Piper Virginia Hull, who was born on November 13th to our oldest daughter/sister, Lauren.  We had the fun of caring for two year old Gabriela while her mommy and daddy were at the hospital with Piper.  Such joy!

While one life is beginning, another very dear to us is ending.  My dad's brother is in the care of hospice and while we wait, I am reminded of how fragile and short life really is on this earth.  My uncle has fought a brave fight against throat cancer and I will always remember what a strong, courageous and encouraging man he has been. 

So much has happened in the LBS saga of our lives.  So many ups... and just as many downs.  There is so much to tell, so many victories and lessons learned, and now the layers are being peeled away.  One by one... and it is painful, not like the peeling after a sunburn, but like the peeling of a skinned knee, where the wound is exposed to the air.  Hopefully we can document these times and see how God is healing precious Nan.  I won't lie, it has been hard.  But at the same time it has been good and Nan has given me courage to go to the hard places with her ... and even within my own self.

My beautiful granddaughters, Ela and Piper (just one week old here).

Yes, please!

Always Hoping for the Sun


Although today is Monday and we are back into school and chores, it is a BEAUTIFUL sunny day today!  To celebrate after lunch, we finished up our favorite chocolate ice cream--HAZELNUT FUDGE!

Ice cream is definitely a treat on an LBS diet.  We found this at Whole Foods and it is made from all organic ingredients.  The basic ingredients are coconut milk, agave, cocoa, vanilla extract and  hazelnuts.  It is positively delicious, the only negative is it goes so quickly!